det går bra nu

Gott folk, ni ska bara veta hur underbart bra jag mår just nu. Jag är så otroligt tacksam för människorna runt mig, inte bara Umeå eller ens Sverige, nej men i hela världen. TACK GUD för att jag fått lära känna så mycket vackert folk. Sen så är Umeå helt underbart just nu. Jag älskar det. Trodde nog aldrig jag skulle säga det om norrland faktiskt. Men det är sant. Kombinationen mellan människorna och min utbildning gör det underbart. Att jag dessutom är där Gud vill ha mig får mig att hoppa av glädje. Tänk att allt kan förändras så fort.

Just nu är jag i Göteborg däremot. Mamma fyllde femtio idag och det ska firas med fest. Alltid så tacksamt att få komma hem se familjen och vännerna. Jag vet knappt vart jag ska ta vägen, så tacksam är jag!

inte en enda dag

Det går inte en dag utan att jag tänker på Hawaii och saknar min ohana. Nu med höstmörkret hängandes som tyngder på min rygg är det svårt att inte fantisera om varmare och ljusare ställen. Ta mig inte fel. Jag älskar att plugga till arkitekt och min klass är fantastisk. Jag har verkligen börjat bilda mig min egen umgängeskrets med både vänner i skolan och utanför. Jag börjar verkligen trivas i Umeå och börjar se min plats här. Men varje gång jag tänker på Surfing the Nations tar mitt hjärta ett extra skutt och jag längtar tills nästa gång jag får se ön, människorna, organisationen jag blivit förälskad i. Gud låt det bli snart!

You are so great!

Just so inlove with god right now! Thank you for a great evening. "I can't wait to join the angels and sing my heaven's song!"

all I want to do is to live for you

Why is it that it's so hard to live for God sometimes? That how hard you ever try it's like you always fall into a trap anyways? There's always something in the way and there's always something that makes you go wrong.

Is it so that the enemy don't want us to do God's work so bad that he's trying everything until he success with making us go wrong? That he's trying to find somewhere to sneak in and destroy what we're building up? That when we show any sign of weakness he's there like a evil snake sucking it up and spreading it in our body like poison?

Whether I'm right or wrong I think the important thing to remember is that God is always gonna be there to forgive you. He will always have marcy on you and he will always love you unconditionally.

love the person and not your relationship

Lately I been kind of down. I love school, but it's hard being at a new place not knowing anyone. A good friend told me to ask God to show me reasons why I'm here and what he wants me to do during this time. That helped me a lot. I feel so much more motivated and happy to be here. It's hard to describe what difference it made and I'm not even really sure what happened. All I know is that I wanna live fully for God, put him first always and be wherever he wants me to be, whether that's Umeå, Hawaii, Gothenburg or any other place on or outside earth.

kanelbullens dag - the cinnamon bun's day

Today was the cinnamon bun's day. Me and a girl from my class decided to make cinnamon buns in the evening and pulled some people together to just have cozy evening.

We made about four times more than this. So we were thinking that we should put the left overs in the freezer in school so we can fika everyday this week. Doesn't it sound wonderful!

It's getting really dark in the mornings now here in Umeå btw. Hard to get out of bed and motivation for the day without sunlight. But when it's getting lighter it's all good again.

heavens song

You wrote a letter and You signed your name
I read every word of it page by page
You said that You'd be coming, coming for me soon
Oh my God I'll be ready for You

I want to run on greener pastures
I want to dance on higher hills
I want to drink from sweeter waters
In the misty morning chill
And my soul is getting restless
For the place where I belong
I can't wait to join the angels and sing my heaven song

I hear Your voice and I catch my breath
'Well done my child, enter in and rest'
Tears of joy roll down my cheek
It's beautiful beyond my wildest dreams

I want to run on greener pastures
I want to dance on higher hills
I want to drink from sweeter waters
In the misty morning chill
And my soul is getting restless
For the place where I belong
I can't wait to join the angels and sing
No, I can't wait to join the angels and sing my heaven song

walking on sunshine

Was walking in the forest and all of the sudden I see this. An outside kitchen, very unexpected.

missing hawaii

I thought I was doing good. I didn't think it was gonna be this hard, but last couple of days has been reminding me about Hawaii and stn so much. I miss it so much!

University, kindergarten.. what's the difference?

This week in school we all got work in groups. Each group got a space somewhere in Umeå and were supposed to really get to know this space. So we went there and experienced it in all different kind of ways.

After that we got to make a model in cardboard how we experienced the space. My group thought our space felt really open and with a high sealing for example.

Today we got to make the real model in scale. This is two pictures of them. It was so much fun! And working in group is such a great experience. I'm so stubborn so it's kind of hard for me sometimes. But I think we're doing good.

your love is greater, your love is stronger, your love is higher than any other

I'm so amazed of God's never ending and unconditional love that he's just pouring over me right now. I feel like it couldn't have been going better and I couldn't have been more welcomed than here in Umeå. It's been really great and there hasn't been one time when I had bad feelings about the city, the people or school. The only thing is that I feel a little sick, but that might have to do with the weather, moving sixty-eleven times in a month and not really being at home anywhere yet. Even tho the girl I'm staying at right now is super mega duper awesome and just making me feel like it's my apartment as much as her's. But I think you all know what I mean.

I got to meet one of my becoming roomies today just by coincident. We were introducing us to each other and both of us got that look on our face and understood that we probably were thinking the same thing. "Are you by any chance the Josefin I'm supposed to move in with?". Such a great first experience of that girl! She seams like a rock! I think this is going to me amazing! I'm really excited to move in with them this weekend!

first day of school.. again

First day of Umeå University of Architecture today. Omy, I'm so tired now. Felt really good, but it was a day full of presentations so I'm exhausted now. Think I'm starting to get sick too, feel like I'm getting a fever. But it's really fun to start over with what I really wanna do.

Ps; Michaela Blom, one of my best friends, her uncle died two days ago in a motorcycle accident. Her cousin was in the accident too but survived. She and her family had a really rough weekend, especially Robin, her cousin. I would love if you kept them in your prayers. They really need it right now!

Ps2; another friend from Hawaii, Emma Johansson, just got to know that she has leukemia and is getting treatment for it right now in the hospital. Please keep her in your prayers too.

HE>i

I'm in Umeå! Aah, Umeå is really beautiful! Went to church today, was supposed to see Erika Persson, but she was not feeling good at all so I went be myself. Met her parents there for the very first time. I'm really impressed by them, they are missionaries in Tanzania. It's so cool.

I had church fika with some students, and they took me on a tour around town, showed me my school and the easiest way for me to get there.

One of the girls that took me on the tour invited me to her apartment to play games tonight, actually in half an hour. It's really good, because she lives on the way to my school so I get to estimate how long it takes for me to get there. Feels good.

Ps; I just finished a book, the shack. I highly recommend that book. Wooow! Had some time over when I didn't have to go to school in Luleå and hadn't moved to Umeå yet. So read a big part of my days. Read it!

Ord 3:5

WOOW! God is great! Can't believe everything that's been happening two last days. So yesterday they were calling me from Umeå University telling me that I got in to architecture school there and that I had until today to decide. After many conversations with a lot of people, different opinions, a looong quiet time and a night sleep I decided to take the great opportunity that it actually is. And it felt good!

So today have been filled with trying to figure out all the practical, living, getting there, etc. Living is of course the hardest. A lot of phone calls to all kind of people. And after a while a girl calls me telling me that she knows Johanna Isaksson, a friend of mine from Hawaii and heard from her that I was moving down. She and another friend of Johanna's were gonna move in to a four rooms apartment and asked me if I wanted to move in with them. Isn't that so cool?!

Everything is really just falling in places. I'm beyond grateful!

Sweden needs your prayers!

James 1:22

This was supposed to be my saturday afternoon and I'm still doing it. It's so much fun I can't put my pen down. Wow, I'm really enjoying drawing layouts.

Had a great morning with the church I was going to last sunday. It was a bounding weekend and I joined today. The youth pastor, my becoming neighbor, invited me to come. They are super sweet all of them.

LUKaS

I got to know about LUKaS the other day. It's a students' association for christians and yesterday was an introduction for the fall. I'm so excited because they have activities several of times during the week. Prayer, lunch, meetings, etc. And I got to see that there are some christians at my school. Wow. God is so good! I'm stoked!

http://www.ludd.luth.se/~lukas/index.php?page=info

First layout!

I'm becoming an architect! How cool isn't that! I'm so excited for what God has for me in the future!

waah

Ooh, I miss having people around! Make me happy, call me!

phil 4:6-7

God is so GOOD! Okay, so Johanna met a girl at Frizon that was gonna move up to Luleå so she told her about me. And Erika knows a guy that lives here that she told to contact me so I could hang out with him some day.

Today I got a text from Stephan, the guy Erika knows, asking me if I wanted to hang out tonight. And after that I get a text from Emelie, the girl Johanna met, asking me if I got the text from Stephan about tonight. So, these two people that are friends to my friends apparently know each other. Or just got to know each other. And I'm gonna hang out with them tonight. Haha, crazy how God works, but I love it!

Thank you Jesus!

Luleå, I'm here!

I just arrived about an hour ago to Luleå. It's really weird to not knowing anyone. But I know it's not going to be like this forever.

The girl I live with seams to be really nice. She look one say off from work to pick me up at the train station.

I'm thinking of going for a walk so I can see the city. I probably will. Maybe get some food and see where the school is.

This is so new for me. God please be with me. Help me to get at least one really good friend. Someone who draw me closer to you. Thank you God for being so good to me!

Some People

Some people just are just such a great inspirations. And it's not even like they're trying to be the biggest rolemodel, they just have it inside them. The greatest thing about them is that they're not proud about anything they're doing and they don't seem to care if anyone knows about the great things they're doing. They are simply just doing all the things they're doing because they love Jesus so much! And they make you wanna do more for this world, make you wanna love Jesus even more.

I have a lot of friends I could put into this category, some that I don't even know of. Today my friend told me about a common friend that had committed to use 15 min of his quiet time to pray for Divine Plesures to give up their buisness, everyday until it happened. He cried when he heard that they were going to sell the property to us. It was such a huge testimony and answer from God for all of us, but especialy for him. Everything I hear about him makes me regret that I didn't get to know him better when I had the change. But it also makes me really excited to hear about what he's going to do in the future. And I'm so glad to be able to call him my friend.

Crazy Love

I'm reding the book Crazy Love right now. It's a really good book if you havn't read it. But I came over something that was very worth thinking of:

"If you could have heaven, with no cikness, and with all the friends you ever had on earth, and all the fook you ever liked, and all the leisure activities you ever enjoyed, and all the natural beauties you ever saw, all the physical pleasures you ever tasted, and no human conflict or any natural disasters, could you be satisfies with heaven, if Christ was not there?"

London

Whaat!? I didn't know until tuesday night that there has been demostrations and all kind of weird stuff happening in London during the time I spent in the airport over there. I was suppost to meet up with lovely Shosh in London, but it was way to expencive. So I decided to not even go in to London if I couldn't meet up with her. And wasn't that soo good! Thank you Jesus for protecting me from going in to the city! I know it was him protecting me! I know it! Gosh! I'm out of words of thanksgiving! You are so GREAT!

sweden is delivering

Around 2am did I walk out from the airport, about 42 hours after I started my jurney back to Sweden. Went to bed 3.30am. Woke up 7.30am. Met up with Julia and Abbey in Gothenburg and spent a great day out at Hönö with awesome friends, new and old ones. Got to swim in swedish ocean, made my heart happy.
I'm dead tired right now. Just want to sleep, but is making myself stay awake for at least 30 more minutes.
Ohana, I miss you, I miss my home. But people couldn't take care of me better than they are here in Sweden.

12 hours in Vancouver

After 12 hours of waiting, watching movies, skyping, spending time with the Lord and with almost no sleep for over 36 hours, I look like this. Resting on the floor outside my gate on all my carry ons. You probably can't tell but I'm deadly tired. I didn't want to sleep before the flight to London, nine hours of flying = nine hours of sleep.

I thought this time here in Vancouver would be so much worse, but the fact is that my computer saved my life. Free wifi: I love Vancouver airport! Good job canadians.

I hoped that someone of my canadian friends would take me for a tour, but in some how all of them had stuff to do the one day I'm in Vancouver. What's the odds?! And the one I forgot to ask would have had time of course. Haha, great! No but it's actually all good, I got to do some stuff and right now I'm having awesome rest on the floor.

I love you Jazz!

God is great!

Janelle, Viktor and I went surfing this morning. In the middle of the surf session it started to drizzle and on one side we saw the beautiful sunrise appearing behind the skyscrapers and on the other side an amazingly intense rainbow in front of the mighty mountains. Woow, God's glory right there!

I love Hawaii!

Thank you God for providing for me so I could do your work in the paradise of earth! God this year and a half has been the best time of my life, but also such a great challenge, and that has probably been where I've been growing the most.

I love that I hate to leave this place, because then I know that it means so much to me. I'm super excited to see where God is going to lead me in this new season of life, but more scared than ever. I also know that going in to the new season means that I need to leave all of this, all that I love so much and some of my best friends behind. But the hardest goodbyes are the best hellos yea!?

I'm looking forward to next time I'm going to see all of you guys again, weather it's me coming to Hawaii, wherever you are, or you coming to Sweden.

I LOVE HAWAII, I love my stn ohana. Thank you for everything! A couple of days more. God help me to endure every single second!

humility

Jesus, please teach me how to be humble in all situations. How to not have pride in anything and how to give all glory to you. Lord I want you to be the provider, the king, the leader in my life. Father give me the right balance! I give everything to you!

Josh Garrels

Today was a very good day! I ate breakfast with this guy this morning. Why?

Because he was playing at an event we had here at Surfing the Nations tonight, alive art show. JoshGarrels music is seriously so good. And meeting him live makes it even better. Just to see what a down to earth, but rad christian he is makes it all so much more real! Keep it up Josh!

happy birthday!

Today was Bryant's birthday (see picture). Jolynn, one of the girls told us about it and Bryant didn't even know. When she said that it was his birthday he denied it and said "nooo, it's July 14th!" and when we told him that that is today he ran around and told everybody that it was his birthday!

I'm so happy that we got to sing for him and give him a birthday cake. You guys should have seen his face. It was absolutely beautiful!

It just makes me so sad to know that his parents didn't care enough to make an effort to even say happy birthday as he didn't even know about it.

I can't believe I'm gonna leave these kids. I love them SO much it's crazy! I just wish I could take all of them home with me! But lucky enough they have great people taking care of them as I leave. Emily, Janelle, Viktor, John! You guys are going to do a great job! And I know Ulu Pono is changing the kids lives! Thanks for being committed!

my family

I'm starting to freak out! Leaving in less than a month! I'm going to miss all of you guys so much! Wether it's us going surfing or just hanging out not doing anything or taking pictures in the hallway on my laptop. Hahaha!

Fil 4:13

TACK JESUS för Bethany Hamilton! Hon förlorade armen av en hajattack när hon var ute och surfade. Men älskade surfing så mkt att hon lärde sig surfa med en arm! Hon har gett hopp till tusentals av människor. Igår kom filmen Soul Surfer ut och idag gick vi och kollade på filmen efter surfers church. Jag blev välsignad med en gratis biljett. Kan lätt säga, utan tvekan, att det va den bästa filmen någonsin! Jag blir så sjukt taggad och det får mig att se hur otroligt stor Gud är. Han arbetar på ett sätt som aldrig jag kommer fatta, men hur det blir till något så mkt större än vad jag någonsin kunna tänka mig också! Herre tack för att du ger hopp för världen och välsignar oss med människor som Bethany!

fasta dag 3

Liggee här i sängen och ska precis gå och lägga mig. Känner magen kurra lite granna, men är otroligt imponerad att man kan klara sig utan mat i tre dygn utan problem. Det har inte varit så mycket problem med hungern. Suget är nog det allra värsta. Är sugen på allt jag ser. Till och med hamburgare som jag egentligen inte ens är så förtjust i. Knäppt. På ett sätt känns det som att jag känner matdofter bättre också. Typ så kroppen reagerar.

Två dagar kvar.

åååhhh

Jag börjar allvarligt fundera på om Gud verkligen vill att jag ska skicka iväg mitt nyhetsbrev eller inte. Det funkar ju liksom inte. Först så har internetet här varit så sjukt dåligt det senaste. Och när väl internetet funkar så läggs min mailchimp ner. Programet jag arbetar i. Jag vill bara skrika. Så nu, antingen väntar jag i en dag eller vad dom sa att det skulle ta eller så skickar jag det i ett annat program. Om det är lätt att görat i ett annat program så gör jag nog det. För jag orkar inte skriva om hela min email-lista.

sjuk..

Just nu ligger jag i Johannas säng och är sjuk. Det suger! Och topp på det väntar jag fortfarande på mitt visum. Jag ska väl egentligen inte klaga. Jag är på väldens vackraste ö, har underbara människor runt omkring mig och får se kärlek sprida sig i ett sämhälle fyllt av hat. Jag fösöker verkligen lägga min oro till Gud, men ibland bubblar det över och jag står inte ut. Snälla be för mitt visum och för att jag ska bli frisk.

mahalo&aloha

1 Joh 3:18

Just nu är bara hälften av internsen här. Det är ganska skönt för då får man lära känna alla så mycket bättre. Sen åker de här iväg till Molokai och de andra kommer hem.

De internsen som är här just nu är helt galna, de kan verkligen gå igång och släppa loss. Det är så skönt för då kan jag släppa löst mitt sanna jag. Hahaha!

Nu ska vi åka till Haleiwa eats, en thai resturant och käka. Världens bästa Johanna Gustin har lovat att bjuda mig. Vilken tjej asså! Jag är så otroligt tacksam för att jag har henne här. Inte enbart för att hon är generös utan för att hon är en fantastisk vän också. Hon och Michaela Blom har verkligen varit en välsignelse för mig under min vistelse här. Jag kommer typ gråta ögonen av mig när de åker hem.

mahalo&aloha

fil 4:13

När jag kom in i USA med mitt tio års visum trodde jag att jag lätt skulle få det ena futtig lilla året jag begärde utan problem. Men neej, jag hade minsann fel. Bara ett halvår fick jag. Men vad som var bra var att jag kunde förlänga det. Även om det innebär mycket mer jobb så är det bra för jag måste inte åka ut ur landet i alla fall.

Nu har det om två veckor gått sex månader, ett halvår, och mitt visum är snart slut. Jag har skickat in min ansökan om ett förlängt visum och fått ett svar att det är i process. Just nu kan jag inte göra mer än att vänta. Det är bra för att jag vet att det verkligen kommer bli till det bästa, så som Gud vill ha det. Jag tror Gud försöker lära mig ett och annat om tålamod nu.

mahalo&aloha

psalm 37:4

Pengar är väl kanske inte direkt det man har gott om som missionär eller vad man nu ska kalla att jag är. Det är verkligen inte så att man kan leva lyxliv, äta ute varje dag osv. Men Gud är god! Det är så otroligt coolt för allt jag behöver löser sig alltid. När jag tror jag har en lösning visar det sig alltid bli ännu bättre.

Pengar och sånt löser sig alltid. Mycket tack vare många av er och jag är evigt tacksam för det! Jag ska säga att ni verkligen gör skillnad här i detta samhället. Här om veckan ringde en lärare till Jazzy och tackade för vårat arbete med Ulu Pono(barnen). Läraren sa att de barnen som förut var bråkstakarna nu är de som är mest intresserade och lugnast i klasserna och tror ni inte att det är de barnen jag, vi jobbar med.

Det området vi bor i här är väldigt fattigt. Det bor ofta flera familjer i ett litet hus och de husen som de bor i ser ut som de skulle kunna rasa bara man blåste på dem. Men inte bara det; det är också mycket droger som går runt här. Vi bor bredvid en porrshop och våra grannar är droghandlare. Det är många bråk som håller på här på nätterna mellan olika gäng här i trakterna.

Jag förstår om det verkar galet, men det har blivit en stor skillnad från när vi först flyttade in hit. Bråken har minskat otroligt. Barnen är bättre i skolorna. Grannar har blivit gladare. Och vi ska köpa huset som porrshopen bredvid oss håller hus i. Så den buisnessen kommer inte vara igång länge till. Det är en radikal skillnad som skett på bara det året jag varit här.

Gud är god och det är väldigt tydligt att vi ska vara här. Jag tror och ber för att Wahiawa kommer bli en stad som prisar Dig Jesus.

mahalo&aloha