all I want to do is to live for you

Why is it that it's so hard to live for God sometimes? That how hard you ever try it's like you always fall into a trap anyways? There's always something in the way and there's always something that makes you go wrong.

Is it so that the enemy don't want us to do God's work so bad that he's trying everything until he success with making us go wrong? That he's trying to find somewhere to sneak in and destroy what we're building up? That when we show any sign of weakness he's there like a evil snake sucking it up and spreading it in our body like poison?

Whether I'm right or wrong I think the important thing to remember is that God is always gonna be there to forgive you. He will always have marcy on you and he will always love you unconditionally.

love the person and not your relationship

Lately I been kind of down. I love school, but it's hard being at a new place not knowing anyone. A good friend told me to ask God to show me reasons why I'm here and what he wants me to do during this time. That helped me a lot. I feel so much more motivated and happy to be here. It's hard to describe what difference it made and I'm not even really sure what happened. All I know is that I wanna live fully for God, put him first always and be wherever he wants me to be, whether that's Umeå, Hawaii, Gothenburg or any other place on or outside earth.

kanelbullens dag - the cinnamon bun's day

Today was the cinnamon bun's day. Me and a girl from my class decided to make cinnamon buns in the evening and pulled some people together to just have cozy evening.

We made about four times more than this. So we were thinking that we should put the left overs in the freezer in school so we can fika everyday this week. Doesn't it sound wonderful!

It's getting really dark in the mornings now here in Umeå btw. Hard to get out of bed and motivation for the day without sunlight. But when it's getting lighter it's all good again.

heavens song

You wrote a letter and You signed your name
I read every word of it page by page
You said that You'd be coming, coming for me soon
Oh my God I'll be ready for You

I want to run on greener pastures
I want to dance on higher hills
I want to drink from sweeter waters
In the misty morning chill
And my soul is getting restless
For the place where I belong
I can't wait to join the angels and sing my heaven song

I hear Your voice and I catch my breath
'Well done my child, enter in and rest'
Tears of joy roll down my cheek
It's beautiful beyond my wildest dreams

I want to run on greener pastures
I want to dance on higher hills
I want to drink from sweeter waters
In the misty morning chill
And my soul is getting restless
For the place where I belong
I can't wait to join the angels and sing
No, I can't wait to join the angels and sing my heaven song

walking on sunshine

Was walking in the forest and all of the sudden I see this. An outside kitchen, very unexpected.

missing hawaii

I thought I was doing good. I didn't think it was gonna be this hard, but last couple of days has been reminding me about Hawaii and stn so much. I miss it so much!

University, kindergarten.. what's the difference?

This week in school we all got work in groups. Each group got a space somewhere in Umeå and were supposed to really get to know this space. So we went there and experienced it in all different kind of ways.

After that we got to make a model in cardboard how we experienced the space. My group thought our space felt really open and with a high sealing for example.

Today we got to make the real model in scale. This is two pictures of them. It was so much fun! And working in group is such a great experience. I'm so stubborn so it's kind of hard for me sometimes. But I think we're doing good.